Still it gives me time to write a little as I've not done so for a good while.
Been sorting the house out, I make no apologies to those who read my mental rambilngs often just I've been tired of staring at a PC for 9 hours a day, then coming home and doing so some more.
This house lark is a good "sucker upper" of spare time but I do find I'm enjoying it. Never has there been so much statisfaction at cleaning the kitchen floor. It's my floor so I happen to feel an affinity with it.
Call me strange if you wish but it's good to have my own space
Aside from that things are the usual roller coaster of stuff and nonsense. Work is worklike and seems to take up the other half of my spare time. my friends are my friends and are as ever the usualy fab cacophony of laughter, obscurity, trails, tribulations and extensive travels.
This easter we celebrated miss H's birthday night out with a boogie in the KH. Fun was had and it was attended by my old and dear friend Mr Pricey who I have known approximately a gazillion aeons and who is truely a top chap. Kinda made me feel a tiny weeney bit on the ancient side though as he and I chatted at the bar a million hours away from the times we used to go there with the rest of the muppets, drink Aftershock until we were paraylised and wait outside Krunchy Chicken for hours while the lads sated their appetite for crap on "chicken".
Seems like a much longer time away than 7 years yet it is so and people change, places change and inevitably we all change. Kinda gets you thinking about all the different kinds of people you've been in the time you've spent going to one place. It's some peoples idea of hell, yet others idea of growth. I look back on it with fondness.
H's birthday was fun. I had a lot of fun chatting and jumping round with Lady H, Davey, Tom, Mr Ree, Motti, Gem's, Sephi, Hana and Sandy (and their friend who may have been called Natalie but had the hiccups) and this was repeated almost on sunday for the karaoke which proved to be a good laugh and was won by Sam the tattooist and Colin (complete with his cock out *ehem*)
And so back to the grind tomorrow. Short week however and then I officially become a student again (albeit in the evening). I decided I wanted a refresher course in basic photography so I can go on and do the level 2 course next year and get a City and Guilds. It's been a while since I've done any practical work or any theory so i'm really lookin forward to getting back into that mind set. I'm doing the course with Hellen and Michelle so it'll be a laugh to be doing it with each other as well.
Bah, I can't help being pensive right now. I feel, tired. Very tired. not physically just mentally. Things are never as simple as they seem and people seem to have this propensity to focus on one thing alone at the cost of seeing the bigger picture. It's hard to deal with when you stand by watching. It can start to affect your self belief and once that cycle starts it's hard to claw your way out.
Security in yourself is the only thing you have control of in the world and I think people forget this and become lost in personas they create or chaos/scenarios they think will add to their lives or alter it. I don't understand it myself. Why make the extra work?
I guess that's one no one can answer.
Still pensiveness aside my best mate and old housemate told me the other day that she will be making me an Auntie in November so I'm horribly excited about that already.
On that note I'm off to shower and make my lunch for tomorrow.
humbug!
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