So 9 months in to parenthood and every day is a learning curve, no day is the same and it's just an amazing journey. I never throught it'd be so rewarding to be permanently exhausted and physically ache. I never understood the passion that a child you created, can give you. I have friends who don't have kids who just don't understand and who can be quite cutting in their attitude and dismissive when I speak about it. I don't know what it is, when you are supportive of someone through their hobbies and interests even if it doesn't interest you, you are a friend but to have an attitude and take no interest is not friendship. It's like some people have assumed I'm still not me.
Anyway, that's their problem.
My little man is doing well and I'm so far really proud of him. He's standing and trying to walk, crawling and saying Dada, mama and lalala, Hiyiyiyiah and bye which is amazing and despite a blip in this TSH levels last week he's still doing well medically. The best thing is he's developing a personality now and it's so fun. He's a comic already.
I'm struggling a little. I'm exhausted and finding it so hard to manage everything. It's helped Al's now in work again but my hours have been cut to 4 days a week for now. The mad thing is I love it, I have a whole day to spend with my little monster and I cant be happier BUT I feel guilty that I'm not earning what I was. It's madness! I'm still getting only about 5hours sleep in any stretch as he still is disturbed and I think it adds up over time. Plus I still miss my grandad terribly, moreso since my niece was born last week (which was his 3rd great grandchild)and he's not here to see her. I'm hoping life gives us a break for a while so we can find our feet again.
Still there are lots of exciting things to look forward to this year at least 4 new babies (one in about a month Mrs S) and Beans first birthday. And now I'm off fridays me and Bean can go bug Auntie Lexy finally one day!
x
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:0 Bug me! Yes please! Hopefully all the building work will be sorted soon - though when the bendy bed gets here is anybody's guess. But yes, just say when :D
And I know how you feel about people treating you different. It sucks, but you get on with it. I have felt incredibly lonely the last few years. However, Princi is fabulous and makes up for most of that, especially now she can form a coherent argument - though whether that is a good thing or a bad thing is yet to be seen. She actually bested me in an argument the other day, so I ended up having to let her do the thing she wanted because I couldn't argue against the point she made! Yikes! So, those days that are never the same, they keep on a-coming!
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